Labor & Delivery Monday April 12th 2010

When Marco got to the hospital that morning they were putting my epidural in. I guess the husbands cannot be in the room any more when they do this so they told Marco he needed to go outside and wait. It was kinda hard getting it done this time because they want to you to bend over as far as you can. Well that is pretty hard to do with two in there. But we got it done. It was wonderful because I could not feel the pain in my back anymore. I felt rested.

They got the epidural in and Marco came back in the room. And we were relaxing. They started the pitocin about 11:00am on the lowest stetting. And they said they would raise it every 30 minutes. Which was fine I could not feel anything anyways. They went in to break Harper's bag of water and put a monitor on her head but her water was already broke. It was a good thing they put it her head. At about 12:15pm her heart rate went up to the 180's and stayed for a minutes or so. And then went back down to normal. Then a few minutes later her heart rate dropped into the 60's which scared the crap out of us. It should never go under 110. At this point in time several nurses came running into the room. The only thing I could think was I was not prepared to loose both of my girls. It was hard enough knowing my time to say hello and goodbye were coming soon.

The nurses put oxygen on and me kept flipping me from side to side. It would go back up then down. I was pretty scared I knew something was wrong. Very wrong. Dr. Renfroe was in a c-section at this point in time. A few moments later she came in the room in her scrubs and face mask and said we are going to have to do a c-section.

I would be telling a lie if I said I was not afraid of a section. I was so scared and there was nothing I could do. Marco, my dad, and I all got on phones and started calling people to let them know. All the while the nurses are getting me ready to go back in the operating room. They give Marco his scrubs to wear. It was cute. We did not have to say anything to each other we could tell each other was very scared at this point in time.

They came and wheeled me back to the operating room. It was cold, very cold. There had to have been 30 people in that room easily. I looked off to my left and seen the different baby warmers labeled A and B. It was hard because I knew for sure B was not going to make. I was not even for sure if B was going to be still born or not. They put warm blankets on my arms because I was shaking. Partly because I was cold and partly because I was scared.

Marco came in the room and they had started the incision already. It was weird, you could feel it but it did not hurt. I could feel them pulling and pushing. Then I hear Dr. Renfroe say no wonder, Harper had her cord wrapped around her body like and x. She was born at 1:32pm crying which was great to hear. That sitting in the bed for 3 weeks had paid off. Then I hear them call the time 1:34pm. She did not cry at all. They took her over to her warmer and cleaned her up a little. Then wrapped her up and gave her to Marco. He brought her over to me and she just looked like she was sleeping. She would make a little squeak when she would breath. She sounded like a little puppy. She was so beautiful. She might not have been perfect to the world but she was perfect to us. She was our angel. She is and will be our last born. She is our baby. She stayed with us for 2 hours and 1 minute. She pasted away when we went to the NICU to get one last picture with her and her sister.

To be continued........